Weak emotionally and physically.
I don't really want to try anymore.
My family.... its a mess.
But I love them. I have to. They're my blood.
Sometimes it becomes too much to handle.
I hide my feelings very well. I don't like crying in front of people, I don't want their pity condolences and such, And I don't want someone telling me "it will be alright" because it won't. Thats a lie.
I've been strong for too long and I'm tired of it. I'm gonna cry a river. Hell, even an ocean.
I'm just gonna let it all loose.
Like a fart....